Confused ??

Confusion. I'm sure we've all suffered from its painful headache causing effect. When I am confused about something I find myself thinking through it OVER and OVER and OVER trying to figure it out. Sometimes when I do understand it is the most exhilarating thing in the world, but I often dont and feel like I am getting closer to reaching insanity with every waking hour.

Now I'm not really talking about the confusion that results from not knowing the answer to a test question or an important fact. Although I will admit that all throughout my school years and even to this day I still take forever and ever to do tests because I think each question OVER and OVER until I am sure I have searched my brain to its deepest depths. The confusion I am talking about comes from relationship. It comes from relationship with friends, family, the opposite sex and even God.

I have always been an overthinker; I give myself this label without hesitation because I know there have been many times when I have thought about a situation too much just to find that it was solved so simply. I don't know..do all girls go through this as much as I do? I know guys prob dont (one of the reasons I enjoy having them as friends is because they dont do this as much). This special ability of mine to think of things in as many different perspectives as possible has come in handy alot of times but its been a big thorn in my flesh at others. God has given me the gift of discernment in many situations and I have been able to understand and recognize things that others wouldnt normally. I have no ability to do this without him, he deserves all the credit. In many other times though it is my human desire for knowledge and understanding that makes my head overheat.

My mind sometimes races a mile a min, I've mentioned in my other blogs how only God can give me peace in those moments. I'm sure I will have also mentioned that I used to worry alot too, this is why one of my life verses is 1 Corinthians 2:9 (no eye has seen..) it reminds me that the plan for my future is greater than I will ever know and that I have nothing to worry about.

Relationships are confusing, partly because the mind is unknown and will only be communicated if a person wants it to be. There is no such thing as mind reading powers except in comics like X men <3.>

So how do we get through confusion? By having faith and thinking simply like a child. By not trying to figure everything out and realizing that sometimes we just got to wait them through. Just like a child trusts his father to take care of him and doesnt doubt, we need to trust that our father will take care of us.

Matthew 18:2-4 He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

I never truly understood what it meant to have "childlike faith" until now. A child relies on his provider for everything; his life is in the hands of those caring for him. We need to rely on our God for everything even though things will often be confusing. He knows our thoughts, He knows our heart, He knows who we truly are and will only provide the best.

You looked into my life and never stopped
and you're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple but so beautiful
and you recite my words right back to me
before i even speak you let me know,
i am understood
you're the only one who understands completely
you're the only one who knows me
yet still loves completely
(Relient K-one of my fav bands-Am I understood)

Tessaling <3>